That moment of summer sat in his car, looking at the street ahead. The world outside the car was noisy and messy, with old buildings on both sides of the street, and the air was filled with the smell of oil smoke and dust. It was late, and under the street lights, the shadows were very long. People walked in a hurry, without time to stop, with no expression on their faces, as if they existed only for a purpose.

He took a puff of cigarette, and the scene outside the window gradually blurred in his eyes. He didn’t know why he always felt confused recently. Perhaps it was the day-to-day life that made him feel breathless, or it was the ruthlessness of this city that made him a little unbearable.

It has been a long time since that moment of summer stopped to think about these things like today. His life is a habitual movement, working, eating, and sleeping every day. Like everyone else, he once thought that the meaning of life was like this. Until recently, at a sudden moment, he began to realize that he was like a bird that couldn’t get out of the cage.

Life is not as simple as he imagined. Perhaps this is where he is really confused.

1. Silent dialogue: alienation between the city and the individual

Nakexia didn’t dislike the city, but he began to feel that the connection between him and it was getting weaker and weaker. Everyone lived in their own independent world, and they just passed each other in a hurry. He no longer remembered the faces on the street, and no one would notice his mood.

In this city, everyone was busy chasing their goals, but they didn’t realize what they were losing. The relationship between people became more and more superficial and more and more distant. Just like him and his colleagues, they worked in the same place every day, but rarely had real communication. Everyone was trying to use busyness to cover up the emptiness in their hearts.

He knew that this feeling of loneliness was universal. Everyone was trying to fill the void in their hearts, but couldn’t find the right thing. Nakexia often wondered if he was just trying to escape from his heart and began to find a little comfort in this endless life.

He remembered the days when he was on the battlefield, when he still had goals and missions, but now he only had the image of this city, which was blurry and unclear.

2. Lost time: no longer the person he used to be

That Kexia used to be a goal-oriented person. He used to fight for an ideal and for his family. However, as time went by, he realized that he was no longer the person he used to be.

The past self was always full of strength and confidence, but now he is always full of doubts. Whether facing his own life or everything around him, he feels that he is getting further and further away from that “original self”. He even began to doubt whether all this was just an illusion he created.

He used to think that all efforts would eventually be rewarded, but now he is no longer sure of this. Life is like the street he walks on every day, flat, simple, and boring. He walks on day by day, not knowing where he is going, and not sure if he wants to continue walking.

The high-rise buildings in this city no longer excite him. He even began to get tired of those glorious buildings, thinking that they are like iron cages that trap people in them and prevent them from being truly free.

3. Ordinary choice: How to face self-failure

That Kexia knew that there was no place for him to escape. This consciousness is like an inevitable crack, gradually tearing him apart from the world around him. No matter how he tries to understand his life and how hard he tries to fill the emptiness, he can’t get rid of the loneliness and loss in his heart.

He began to understand that many problems in life are not easy to solve. No matter how hard he tries, he can’t get rid of the emptiness in his heart. Whenever he looks at himself in the mirror, he always feels that the face is becoming more and more unfamiliar.

He began to realize that this confusion and loss is not accidental at a certain moment, it is actually something deeply buried in everyone’s heart. As we are pushed by time day by day, we gradually lose control of our lives and even forget our original desires and dreams.

But even so, Na Kexia did not give up. He did not give up trying to understand himself and find that faint hope. He told himself that maybe he didn’t need to find a clear answer, maybe all the searches were just to make himself live more truly.

4. The courage to go out: towards the silent truth

Finally one day, Na Kexia decided to walk out of this city that made him feel suffocated. He didn’t know where he would go, but he knew he couldn’t stay there any longer. He began to pack his bags and left the city with all his questions.

He thought he would find the answer, but he gradually realized that the answer was not important. What was important was that during this journey, he could face himself again, and face those neglected feelings and wishes deep in his heart.

Xia didn’t say much at that moment, and he no longer expected anyone to understand him. He only knew that he had to leave and find the lost self.